Am I Nearing My Menopause?

The word never bothered me until yesterday. Flashback to a few weeks ago, I watched a video clip of Opra* talking about menopause. I watched the whole duration thinking that the information might be useful someday... someday. Then last night I started thinking about it again. I don't know what triggered it. But I was feeling a lot of emotions and then I remembered menopause. I was imagining all the signs and symptoms of menopause and I was scared. 

When I get the chance, I'd jog around the neighborhood, just a 20-minute jog-walk-jog routine that keeps me on my toes. I usually have a windbreaker with me, a habit I picked up back when I was still doing Taekwondo. So windbreaker, shirt underneath, sports bra, leggings, sometimes a waist trimmer, depends on the leggings I'm wearing. And I can usually run even at 8 in the morning. 

But this morning, while I was running, I was feeling hotter than usual. I was sweating and I was almost out of breath. I was thinking that probably because I didn't get enough sleep, or that it's summer and it's really hot outside. But it was only 7 in the morning. And then I went back to asking myself, "am I nearing my menopause?" 

https://www.verywellhealth.com/menopause-4014690

At age 42, I could be in my peri-menopausal stage. And a lot of things have started to run again in my head, like loosing estrogen, being dry down there, what would happen to "you know". On the other hand, I was also thinking, probably my myoma would shrink. It's having crazy thoughts in my head.

I'm not getting any younger. Is this what all women think by the time they are in their 40s? I remember mama talking about her symptoms and it's scaring me. Though I didn't notice if she had it bad, she carried herself well in my opinion. I guess what is scaring me the most is the hot flashes and the dryness down there.